OK just watched Beautiful Losers documentary again to gain a little perspective back. Here is a quote from Mike Mills at the end of the movie that helped me today. It might not be exact but it's real close.
"It is good to be able to say that work is rad, to not be like oh that work sucks all the time, which in art school is what you get trained to do, nothing's good enough, everything's shitty. It is so much more powerful to say that is rad. I love that. I wish I did that."
And then he basically says if you are looking at people being interviewed about art in suits, making jokes, or reading press or articles or watching TV "don't believe a fucking word of it."