Philadelphia Museum of Art

I just went to see the special exhibit at the Philadelphia Museum of Art and it was incredible!! The exhibit is called: Tesoros/Treasures/Tesouros: The Arts in Latin America, 1492–1820. It is only up till the end of the year but if can go to it please do. I haven't enoyed an exhibit this much in a long time. If you are a minimalist though don't see it. Also saw a painting by Leon Frederic called "The Source of Life" that was incredibly creepy yet very modern. Amazing.

crazy

As much as I love being an artist, there is a downside...like when you have those insecure, crazy feelings like everyone is better than you, getting more jobs than you, and selling more art than you and for more money than you. Guess what? That is what I am doing today. Feeling a little bit panicky and anxious that I will not make it and everyone is passing me by. AHHHH. Stupid.

And to top it all off I have a big client who owes me a nice check and is late paying it and now my carefully budgeted money is dwindling to nothing. Makes me CRAZY!! and very ANGRY and stressed out. Writing it down kind of makes me be able to let it go. There ain't nothing I can do about it. I am trying not to throw myself a pity party because I really have it quite good and this problem is little compared to what others endure. OK I am done. Lovely. Crazy. Fun. Dumb ass.

Still thinking that blogs are weird. I should just be writing this in a journal or something. Jeese louise I have to stop being all insecure today.

Art is fun

When I started my freedomwig painting-a-day project I fretted too much about what people might like to see and trying to be all cool and artsy. The longer it goes on, the more I find myself not worrying about that anymore. This is refreshing. I am just doing it. Some turn out better than others, but it just doesn't matter. YAY. Thinking is overrated. Doing is better.

Holiday Shmoliday

I watched the movie Prancer last night. It was sweet and simple and made me bawl like a baby. Put me in a good Christmas mood. Haven't had that nice Christmas feeling in a while. Been too harried in the past. The holidays should be simple and sweet. I am blocking out all the selly selly buy buy stuff right now and it is much easier to appreciate. I believe in Santa.

I need to go on more dates.

I love painting.

Home / Southwest

I am back home. I ate too much good stuff in SF. The junk store was finally open!! It was piled HIGH with all kinds of junk and I found some amazing things but alas the fellow who runs the place priced everything too dang high. WAY too high for the way the place looks. It feels like the basement of your crazy old aunt with OCD who hoards everything. I was expecting rock bottom prices but he was charging fancy antique store prices. So I only ended up with some old movie magazines. He said he has to close down the store by January 31 so I was suprised he wasn't more motivated to sell. I'll go back close the the 31st and see what's up.

I have been flying Southwest alot lately. Have you noticed how crazy people who fly Southwest get about lining up in the A, B, C lines? The people in the A line are the craziest of them all! God forbid if you stand in the wrong place. The A-liners lose it if you stand wrong. Doesn't make sense because if you are in the A line you will get a decent seat even if you are the last A. I love watching people get all high and mighty about the order of the line. It is quite entertaining.

San FRancisco

I am off to San Fran tonight. Going to work on a project with 826 Valencia, a cool organization that helps turtor students to improve their writing skills. It was founded by Dave Eggers (McSweeney's). Maybe they can help me done write better too. I get to meet with a student who has written a story and together we will develop an illustration to go with their story. Coolness!

I love San Francisco. I go there whenever I need a quick city fix. Los Angeles is a great place to live but really isn't a city. It's just a bunch of suburbs all hooked together. San FRan is incredibly beautiful and you can walk around and the architecture is dreamy! Hopefully I'll get some good inspiration for my daily paintings.

There is this one crazy junk store in North Beach that is ALWAYS closed when I am there. My friend Jennifer calls me every time she walks by the store to taunt me because it is always open EXCEPT when I am in town. It better be open this week. I REALLY want to go inside. It is one of those stores that has dusty junk piled high everywhere. Please let it be open. PLEASE!!!

Painting everyday

It is day 33 of my painting every day project. Today I REALLY didn't want to paint. Went to a wedding last night and needless to say the red wine was flowing freely. So today I got my butt to the studio and painted. I am glad I did. I have never been this disciplined EVER! It is kind of scaring me that I have kept it up so far. Hmm I feel good about myself. Nice. Can I do this for a year?

How come I can't be this disciplined about exercising and eating healthy? All these holiday holiday parties and weddings and dinners are kicking me hard. SOOO tired but having much fun. Tomorrow I am going to bed at 9:00 pm.